I have lost one more pound since the last update... HA! at least I'm not gaining.
I have been so busy lately. And stressed.
I have this weekend off to go with my mom and Johnny to KY to see my niece graduate high school... Starting to feel a little old now... and then back to hectic life. I like being busy but i need a vacation. Away from home and away someplace nice. ANYONE KNOW HOW TO DO THAT FOR FREEEEEEE? lol.
still trying to dance my buns off... well... i am focusing more on the tummy region. I kind of like my butt now. :) its nice. Dancing has made it perkier. :) :) :)
OK so I don't update on the regular cause I am so boring.
I am still on break from the fertility thing. I just can't handle it right now. And I know I am not getting any younger. Maybe I just don't think medical people are going to help me. Only the Grace of God will. And I just can't focus on it right now. I just want to live. and being miserable all the time is no way to live. worrying about when I am supposed to have sex and worrying about how I am supposed to lay or what i have to do... what i can and cannot eat.... what is wrong or right just to TRY and conceive so i MIGHT carry a baby to term... its not living.
And maybe its selfish of me to think that way but it was eating at me. I was becoming and b-i-t-c-h. and I don't want to BE that. I hated me like that. so breaking.... and maybe broke. we will see....
