So I have been sick this past week or so. Sinus infection!! EEEK.
I am working my BUTT off slowly :) I have lost weight since I have been working 2 jobs. I guess retail will do that for you. I have not had much time to do anything but work though.
I am on a break from school until life settle down. And I have to take my Praxis exams. WELL, that will happen as soon as we start getting real money. I get my first paycheck from AC MOORE tomorrow. This is johnny's last week of unemployment because he starts work on Monday. I am SO EXCITED about that!!! After he starts working I will be able to pay down my bills again and save for my exams. Hopefully by February I will have those under my belt!!! If not it will be 2013 before I can student teach. Which if it happens that way then I know it was supposed to happen that way.
I have been kid of down lately. I have so many friends who are posting online about how they are expecting. some of them have kids already and some don't. I know I should be happy for them... and I am happy for them, but sometimes that gets overshadowed by my breaking heart. people who can have kids take it for granted. And I don't like to feel like Debbie Downer, but I am when it comes to that. I don't feel like anyone understands me anymore on that area of my life. Drs. don't listen. And none of my friends really understand (most of them have babies). I just let it bring me down sometimes. and today is one of those days.
Know why? because today I actually have time to think. I am only at one job today. :) And this job has internet access :) Which I no longer have at home. Or cable. It is fairly easy to live without if you ask me. With the phones we have nowadays who needs it. I have netflix on my phone!!! I can just watch something on there if i get bored.
I know I am a lucky woman. I have the best husband, a great family and super excellent friends. I just let these things get to me sometimes... and I am only human.
