just another update

total weight lost 17 pounds. back at classes and loving it. got to dance for 2 hours last night. slim fast is still killing me. I thought it would get easier but I still want to eat and I'm starving by dinner. I even a quote unquote cheat by eating carrot sticks and apple slices. it's kind of a downer when I'm doing so good to be so frustrated with what I'm trying to do. 17 pounds down and I'd like to get about 70 more. short term goal will be 15 more pounds. I'd like to do that by april. wish me luck! I am trying to get more active and I'm trying to eat better and I'm try to make johnny do it with me. eating at home or instead of eating out is something we both need in our lives. and wants this weather is better and not rainy all the time it seems... I will want to start walking again. maybe I can start tonight. whatever I can do to make us more active. johnny and I both need a good swift kick to get us started. also I need to make a stop at my doctor's office. I haven't been for a checkup in so long because of not having money. but I seriously need to follow up on my thyroid issue as well as the pcos. both of those diseases are working against me when I'm trying to lose weight. right now I'm kicking their butts but any day they could take over. I just need to go to the doctor and get healthy.

that's it for this quick update and I will update everyone soon again.

Hungry Girl.

I have been on slim fast all week and it is not easy!!!  I think it will get easier.. but oh my gosh!

Back on track...

So tonight back to class i went. So much fun! I missed it. Hopefully i won't have to quit again. I finally had something that was fun and it was EXERCISE. Wow. I love dancing. And i feel so good after it.
Monday i start slim fast. I have to do something to get this weight off.
Johnny and i also made the decision to make sure we each take a daily multi vitamin too. It is time we get healthy and happy together. We also want to get spirituAlly healthy again so we are going to be going back to church again.
2012 will be a good year!

An update....

So I have been more active lately, mostly due to the fact that I am working a second job.  I have lost right under 15lbs and I am feeling good.  Now, I got on the scale this morning and I seem to maybe have hit a wall.  I am getting less hours at my second job now that the holidays are over so I am only working 3 days instead of 5.  I am exhausted from working the jobs but I am Excited about getting on with my healthier way.  I have been eating at home more, too.  I made homemade chili this week.... A TON of it.  My birthday week was a different story.  I ate out WAY too much.  I think that might be why i hit my wall.
I have been eating rice cake snacks too.  Now that Johnny and I are both getting paychecks I am going to start getting some cherry tomatoes and carrot sticks with fat free ranch in the fridge. MMMMMM.  Some of my favorite go to snacks while I was on weight watchers the  first time.
I am also thinking that i might go to a weight loss clinic.  I still have to think to about that because that would be a lot of money monthly.  But it would all be worth it in the end.
well, I got some things to do today.  :)  Til next time.

All Work and No Play.

So I have been sick this past week or so.  Sinus infection!!  EEEK.
I am working my BUTT off slowly :)  I have lost weight since I have been working 2 jobs.  I guess retail will do that for you.  I have not had much time to do anything but work though.
I am on a break from school until life settle down.  And I have to take my Praxis exams.  WELL, that will happen as soon as we start getting real money.  I get my first paycheck from AC MOORE tomorrow.  This is johnny's last week of unemployment because he starts work on Monday.  I am SO EXCITED about that!!!  After he starts working I will be able to pay down my bills again and save for my exams.  Hopefully by February I will have those under my belt!!!  If not it will be 2013 before I can student teach.  Which if it happens that way then I know it was supposed to happen that way.
I have been kid of down lately.  I have so many friends who are posting online about how they are expecting.  some of them have kids already and some don't.  I know I should be happy for them... and I am happy for them, but sometimes that gets overshadowed by my breaking heart.  people who can have kids take it for granted.  And I don't like to feel like Debbie Downer, but I am when it comes to that.  I don't feel like anyone understands me anymore on that area of my life.  Drs. don't listen.  And none of my  friends really understand (most of them have babies).  I just let it bring me down sometimes.  and today is one of those days.
Know why?  because today I actually have time to think.  I am only at one job today.  :)  And this job has internet access :)  Which I no longer have at home.  Or cable.  It is fairly easy to live without if you ask me.  With the phones we have nowadays who needs it.  I have netflix on my phone!!! I can just watch something on there if i get bored.
I know I am a lucky woman.  I have the best husband, a great family and super excellent friends.  I just let these things get to me sometimes... and I am only human.

Time on my hands

So today was my first day with no work.  I am very kind of BLAH about this whole situation.  I spent all day moping and typing a fanfiction story.  (major geek I know).  I have a friend coming over tomorrow to sit hang out.  This chick always cheers me up so I think that will be good for me.  
I feel like I was taking 2 steps forward and someone just punch me and kicked me and when i was down they rolled me back 5 steps.  All the air went out of my balloon.  
It is a momentary set back.  I already have some job prospects but this will interfere with school I am sure.  I don't know How I am going to fit in observation hours and I still have to pay for fingerprinting and tests this month.  I am so frustrated I want to scream.  
I know God has a plan for me.  I know He does.  And He has always seen us through before (like us getting a windfall of money just when we have needed it before).  But I have a bad feeling in my gut.  I have always been told to trust my feelings.  
Tomorrow I am going to get up and at least be somewhat productive with my time.  I want to clean house before my friend comes over.  Then I am going to spend my time organizing my house until the Hubs gets home then we are going to utilizes the Gym while we have it paid for.  Good thing we got into a month to month place.  That way I can stop it. 


sad as it is I have to give up my dance classes for now too.... Just until I find something.  If I haven't had any call backs. etc, by next week i think I am just going to sign up for sub teaching.  That will be better for me while I am in school and it will be a pay check even if it is only once a month.  I will just have to adjust :) 


Things will get better........ I know it.  

Insomnia, Good Books, and Sore Muscles.

I cannot seem to get comfortable to sleep tonight.  Boo.  I need to get rest so my body doesn't just totally die out on me tomorrow.  I am so tired, but I am sore and I think that might have a lot to do with it.  It is a good pain... like the pain of my fingertips when I was trying to learn guitar.  (I need to try that again too.  I gave up too easy!!)  I know I am sore now but it will be worth it.  I skipped out on working out today because in between my shoulder blades is really sore and I didn't want to push it too much and over do it since I am just starting out. I worked out on Thursday at the gym, then went to my dance class for the first time IN AGES on Friday.  


IT FELT SO GOOD.  


I didn't know if I would make it for the full time... there was one part where I was just like... OK if I just stop now I still would be doing a lot!  But then I shook it off and kept going.  Anna isn't really a hard ass or anything so it keeps it FUN.  But we burned over 700 Calories and took over 5500 steps in 50 minutes that really went by a lot faster than 50 minutes of me in a gym so I am going to celebrate the minor success in making it!!!


Tomorrow morning will be filled with school work... SO STRESS!  I really think I flipped my lid thinking I could do all of this at once working full time and full time at school.  Part of this transition also keeps down my stress I think because I am sweating it out LOL.


If I have time I might try to sneak to the gym and try their hydro massage.  I get it with the membership and I have never tried one but I think it might help me out about now.  


Then tomorrow afternoon is another dance class!!!!  I am going to be doing 6 weeks of Sunday classes!  And that means one more work out i didn't do before :)  another (dance) step in the right direction.  


And can we just say now that the weather is AMAZING.  It was absolutely the perfect temperature outside today and not raining.  Great Saturday.  I think I want to try and go to the public market by Turkey creek as a treat if I get done with my homework in time before class.  I heard it is pretty good so I want to check it out.  Has anybody else been yet???  I was kind of giving it a bit of time to catch on before going and to see if I could find out if was good before going or not.  


Oh and if you haven't noticed yet.  I am totally obsessed with the Hunger Games Trilogy!!