All Work and No Play.

So I have been sick this past week or so.  Sinus infection!!  EEEK.
I am working my BUTT off slowly :)  I have lost weight since I have been working 2 jobs.  I guess retail will do that for you.  I have not had much time to do anything but work though.
I am on a break from school until life settle down.  And I have to take my Praxis exams.  WELL, that will happen as soon as we start getting real money.  I get my first paycheck from AC MOORE tomorrow.  This is johnny's last week of unemployment because he starts work on Monday.  I am SO EXCITED about that!!!  After he starts working I will be able to pay down my bills again and save for my exams.  Hopefully by February I will have those under my belt!!!  If not it will be 2013 before I can student teach.  Which if it happens that way then I know it was supposed to happen that way.
I have been kid of down lately.  I have so many friends who are posting online about how they are expecting.  some of them have kids already and some don't.  I know I should be happy for them... and I am happy for them, but sometimes that gets overshadowed by my breaking heart.  people who can have kids take it for granted.  And I don't like to feel like Debbie Downer, but I am when it comes to that.  I don't feel like anyone understands me anymore on that area of my life.  Drs. don't listen.  And none of my  friends really understand (most of them have babies).  I just let it bring me down sometimes.  and today is one of those days.
Know why?  because today I actually have time to think.  I am only at one job today.  :)  And this job has internet access :)  Which I no longer have at home.  Or cable.  It is fairly easy to live without if you ask me.  With the phones we have nowadays who needs it.  I have netflix on my phone!!! I can just watch something on there if i get bored.
I know I am a lucky woman.  I have the best husband, a great family and super excellent friends.  I just let these things get to me sometimes... and I am only human.